well basically the title say it all...
2day i am so damn angry.. jude, hazirah, hamizah and even fairus can see that... i dont mean to make it sound like i putting a hell lot of thinking into it.. first thing first i wanna say my halloweennnn night was tremendous fun at sentosa and escape. i think that is the only time u cant differentiate between real ghost and fake... hahahahah

back to topic.... today turns out smoothly until practical IM started.. everytime who gets to my nerve is fairus i can bear with it... wats the pt of showing face... when my grandmother passed away was like 2 yrs ago. i was taking mid yr result and i know the news the first thing i wake up sia... i was very close to her wat... but when reached sch i put on a mask wat... i dont want to disrupt everyone's mood wat... so i act normal... then wat... this yr my father get heart attack (finally jude noes) its on the sunday... on monday somemore got sch... ppl their family member sick they sad sad... but i dont seem to think that as a point basically coz i dont wan ppl to be unhappy coz i'm sad... i still put on a mask wat and wact as per normal.. wats more at that pt of time i already lack of sleep... fairus disturb hidayah also i scold him for her wat... nobody noes wat coz i dont seem to think it is any of ur business. i still happy happy wat eventhough i'm sad inside.. just now hidayah received a msg from the mother say the grandfather critical stage.. i noe she sad but cant she just tell the truth from the start so i will not disturb her... i talk to her she keep her mouth shut ok i'm fine with it.. kewy talk to her than only i found out hidayah haven gone dump... i didnt ask her once i ask her lots of time. she still can keep mum about it.. until jude say sorry for no reason also she dont want to reply.. before that angry alread. feel like shouting at her sey... but coz i dont wan to make her cry instead i go disturb fairus... u think ur problem is critical arh.... mine is worse but still wats home problem remains at home... so... that's not the only thing. when another person ask u u willingly answer. wat piece of shit is this... i didnt even expect her to follow me to go for break with hazirah all wat... its just that when i go with shuting they all, they speak chinese and i dont understand a thing... i'm not implying anything but just state the facts. its not coz i dont like them or anything it just that i dont understand wat they talking... when i speak mly to someone and any of my other races frens there i will translate wats happening to them. but they dont so i felt so left out. if hid follow hazirah they all because of me than pls dont ok... i just dont any conflict.that's why when i go out with shuting they all i am never the bubbly person... i am different i am not wat u ppl think i am.... but since jude ask u u never answer him, khairani take a pledge to think that it is her turn to try and say... then suddenly u cry.... and khairani feel guilty till i have to tell her that u will calm down and u can talk to her later... everyone saw attitude and ask me because they say we 'bestfriend'. they blame fairus coz they noe fairus like to disturb her... but when anwar, zaman, fairus, etc. wan to disturb u coz u give this one face that shows that u will break down anytime soon i stopped them... when fairus ask u nicely u show face... when fairus irritating u give face and the PMS starts. haiyooo.. no problem also when comes to practical ur face will automatically changed coz of fairus.. and i was like cut into half by both of u guys... WTH... i'm on a verge of shouting... even during break time anwar ask me dont be angry.... i can say words that can cut and hurt anyone feelings at any time...... than when EES pract i ask her still dont want to answer until wat 5th or 6th time then u finally answer.. haiyoo... first thing first when u dont like fairus u can just tell teacher that u dont wan to be in the same grp as him... i'm ok if i were to be with anyone as a grp member coz i dont have problem with them even if i find them irritating at times...
BUT PLS ARH THINK IF I GOT SO MANY PROBLEMS AND NOT BRINGING IT TO SCH WHY CANT U.

queueing for 969 bus so stella ask wat happen between oliver and her... oliver can happily use my name to put at every fault any members do... ms lim like shit wat.. she say she gg to settle the thing with oliver still she leave it hanging wat and whenever he saw my face he will look away... eh without me,jude, hazirah, khairani in the club the club is like one nerd club..then still have the guts to blame us when u are actually after the money...u da one like begging us to go and join in the end u kicked us out.... wah one more thing... i think the whole of science teachers noe me already....i think bapok like to belit2 arh (j).... and guess wat those who appeal and get approved u guys still will get 0.1 pts.... he still can say i can go back to the club if i wan to.... if i by any chance were to go back i will poison the fishes inside... talk abt contribution.. pls arh i contribute more to the club... and say i dying there just for cca pts..... and i think now i noe how oliver noes i bully zk... its bcoz he complaints to him.... bloody fucking piece of shit.... fuckers....

while waiting for hazirah all finish talking abt gep, i anwar, syukk and jude seat outside.... i seriously feel like slapping the nursing teacher face sia... the nursing students makes noise the teacher never scold but when jude and anwar laugh the teacher come out and scold us... fuck u cibai..... the door is for u to close it wat so tat the noie will not enters wat... and tats our fault how....

now u guys noe how bad the day went.... i was super in a bad mood but still i talk to them wat... oliver wan to make me popular in a bad way by all means do so...
i dont have a feeling for it on how ppl look at me... they like me or not is their fucking business.... its not mine at all to begin with


P.S. I HATE 2 SIDED PPL... THEY CAN GET ON MY NERVES PRETTY FAST.. I'M VIOLENT BUT I'M NOT GG TO SHOW IT...... ASK MY FRENS THEY HAVE SEEN ME GONE MAD B4... COZ I FOUND U LIKE A KID I LET IT GO BUT IT STILL CONTINUE THEN I WILL NOT APOLOGIZE FOR MY ACTIONS.... I'M BAD TEMPERED PPL WILL WISH THEY BETTER BE IN HELL